Monday, June 04, 2018

The End of an Era

It's always bothered me when people feel you are what you do. I do many things. You can see that right up in my little blurb - "Mom, wife, teacher, evil stepmother, friend, fiber, whatever...maker of handcrafted items, and throughout it all, a diehard sci-fi/fantasy/literature nerd and lover of coffee." I've had a number of professions, really good ones. I've had jobs and I've had professions. I've done some fairly interesting things like being a cook in a county jail, or a medical editor, or a corporate trainer, or a teacher in public education. The best thing I've ever done is to be a mom. When I start something new, I give it my all. I don't become that but I give it my best effort, whatever that might be at that time. When it becomes more heartache than joy, I move on to something new.

When I became a mother, it was a lifelong commitment for me. I wanted to be an involved parent and I wanted to love my children completely, unconditionally, and for their entire lives as long as I lived and beyond. This wasn't just some job or profession it was a life change. Now, I have a different life change. I dropped my youngest off halfway across the country yesterday to begin her summer internship with NASA. She'll come back for one semester before completing her bachelor's degrees, but then she's off on her new life. My oldest moved out right after she graduated. She wanted something new, something different, than what she had during her first 17 years of life. I supported her in that, and I'm so proud that she is continuing to be independent and a competent adult.
My youngest daughter and I have always been close and shared many interests. It's as if we were tethered. I'm very proud of her, too. It's going to be a big change for me not to have her here with me everyday. It's a new kind of being a mom.

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